A Conversation on Failing

Pure, unstained religion, according to YHVH our Father, is to Take Care of Orphans and Widows when they Suffer and to remain Uncorrupted by this world. (Paraphrased)~ James 1:27

You know what makes this inspiration and instruction so priceless, is enduring long enough to see Results. Personally, it has been just over 8 months of an interaction with someone… Just to begin, throughout and gradually as well, to present day. There were days and weeks of personal fleshly despair of ever witnessing a turning from darkness to light.. but it has begun to happen, quite personally over 3.5 years, and will continue within me for as long as I am human.

This has been the most consuming interaction in me for many years, if ever.  Also, incredibly humbling. I have learned so much of the vast chasm between Order and Chaos…Order and Coincidence (because I choose Order there are no coincidences, no chaos). (Judges 2:16 -Then YHVH would send Judges {me} to Rescue them from those who robbed them. And yes, this person was robbed at knifepoint by three young men) and victimized.

Gradually, the turning of circumstances has begun because of Yeshua’s ongoing passionate actions, and this servant’s attempts at faithfulness. I have sometimes failed.. He didn’t. He stood in the gap, when I did fail, until I resolved to interact by the Spirit instead of ‘flesh’.

Now, the person being rescued is moving into a much better situation, condition, mindset. They have chosen to return a portion of what I gave, as a sign of gratitude, thankfulness.

To Yeshua’s absolute Glory, and this person’s Olah (to lift up – whole burnt offering by me, their priest in Melchizedek’s Order – Lev. 1).

I am wiser for this whole experience…. and ever more dependent on Yeshua for Wisdom and Vision and Patience and Forgiveness. I resolve to See the goal/end of the Torah…. Romans 10:4

Regarding James 1:27 – to remain uncorrupted in the specifics of pure religion is to Not think give and take thoughts when helping someone who’s very far from even grasping why you’re doing what you do. Indeed the give and take, the contractual thinking, causes one to expect some sense of gratitude, reciprocity, return, results on our timetable and success- a running meter.

It takes the Spirit out of it. Rather, it won’t even allow the Spirit any room to interact. It’s all Us… and we are rarely satisfied. To be unstained is to just Do, and Do. Go the second mile. [Matthew 5:41-  Whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two.] Any results are in the Messiah’s realm, not mine/ours. It may be years, it may be Never.. as I perceive it. It may be, Today. Even the Messiah Himself experienced/endured this – He healed 10 lepers, only one returned to Thank Him. He loves the World… only a remnant will Respond. Don’t expect results. Expect only Obedience. Yours. Everything else in Yeshua’s responsibility and yes, His Glory.. not mine.

Guard what others despise, reject, treat with indifference, mis-understand, mis-apply, seek with a genuine heart and mind. We keep, by Spirit-led proper appropriate application. Be the Good Ambassador in everything to everyone. Example Yeshua. Others may not know Him, but they know You…. and knowing You, they come to know Him.

 We are helped and blessed by hearing what you’ve experienced by your faithful walk of obedience. Even when you say you’ve failed sometimes it helps us to keep pressing on in our own walk….knowing none of us are perfect Yahweh uses a man who is humble….and gives all glory to our Father! My heart aches to be obedient (“perfection”) in Yahweh’s eyes…and look forward to that day when we are free from this fleshly temple to serve Him in perfect joy for all eternity. 

I chose to be open about what I’ve been experiencing for the reasons you mentioned. Yes none of us are perfect by our measure… but, what is His measure? He told Abraham ‘walk before me and be blameless..’ and said much the same to other individuals. They really weren’t.. by our standard of measure at least. But, were they then, by His?  Yes.  Because He describes them as blameless. When we choose to pursue obedience even a flawed obedience, He calls us blameless because we’re choosing to Do.

Included in the Torah is repentance and forgiveness, isn’t it?  Doing even this, is part of blameless or perfection. So…. in my daily life I have this person with whom I interact sometimes daily. There is such a strong presence of Yeshua in me every time and this is what impresses me.  He is watching ever so closely what I do and how, and brings to mind Respect for this person above all else.  They just don’t know what I know.  I can only trust Yeshua that a lasting impression of ‘something’ is being made. May it be completely what He wants, and not anything that I’ve thought to impress upon another person.

I needed these words….explaining ‘blameless’ with the examples in His Word along with your life’s experience. What a comfort to have assurance of Yahweh’s acceptance of us even when I can’t accept my failure to be all that I know is ‘right’ according to scripture. My heart aches with having been praying for so many, so much suffering within my little realm of friends and acquaintances.

There is such a helplessness even with the knowledge of His promises concerning faith and healing. (guilt and self doubt comes as I ask, ” is my faith too weak, not fasting enough, as Isaiah 58 teaches, not consistent in obedience, failure to always put Yahweh first?  I believe that eventually I will understand “Why” but today I yearn for the miracles that Yeshua did when He walked with His disciples. Thank You for sharing your understanding of scripture. Yahweh helps and blesses me just at the right moments in my life and you’ve been used in this way by Him….even here, a great distance away physically….

Published by Nancy

I’m a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a writer, a friend. I cook, clean, work, teach, study, live, love and laugh, but when it’s all said and done, I still feel empty. I want what I can’t have, I’ve wanted it for a long time but it was taken. I thought to myself, the desire for it should go away now that I’ve prayed…I’ve cried, begged, pleaded and even pretended it wasn’t there; I cry out to God and beg Him to please just take this from me, do something to strip me of the earthly desires, of the evil in my heart and nothing happens…it’s still there and some days it’s hard to swallow and suck down the tears inside, it hurts so much and in one brief moment, it could all be gone so quickly! He gives me words to bless others with and release my own thoughts.

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