First Step…

Surrendering…

It won’t be easy, anything worth having should be worth the energy and time it takes to get it. Nearly five years, intentionally setting out to start a journey to healing. Nearly five years, learning correct from incorrect.  All this time has been spent on healing, walking, talking, correction, critiques, biting my tongue, taking baby steps for an hour at a time. Learning to not blame myself, not disparage the woman that God made me to be, not feeling guilt and shame, learning faith, trust, value.

I was chosen by God before the foundation of the world to be holy and without blame before Him in love.   ~Ephesians 1:6

 

More to Come…

Published by Nancy

I’m a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a writer, a friend. I cook, clean, work, teach, study, live, love and laugh, but when it’s all said and done, I still feel empty. I want what I can’t have, I’ve wanted it for a long time but it was taken. I thought to myself, the desire for it should go away now that I’ve prayed…I’ve cried, begged, pleaded and even pretended it wasn’t there; I cry out to God and beg Him to please just take this from me, do something to strip me of the earthly desires, of the evil in my heart and nothing happens…it’s still there and some days it’s hard to swallow and suck down the tears inside, it hurts so much and in one brief moment, it could all be gone so quickly! He gives me words to bless others with and release my own thoughts.

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