Some Days…

I’ve had a very full life, married for many years.  I have two beautiful and amazing daughters and four grandchildren that I love dearly. I study the Bible and other resources a great deal, this is good but to make it better I actively walk out the call that has seemingly been placed upon me.

Sometimes I feel as though I have no or a rare place in this world.

I’ve been working with two home-based companies over the past 1.5 years. The companies are really great and I love their products. I feel like that field of work just isn’t for me. I am not content, I have no peace in this realm.  My husband supports any choice I make, always encouraging and claiming that he will help me and I love that.

I feel like I’m just filling up space and not actually living. At the end of the day, I feel empty as though I’ve not met my soul’s purpose.

Published by Nancy

I’m a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a writer, a friend. I cook, clean, work, teach, study, live, love and laugh, but when it’s all said and done, I still feel empty. I want what I can’t have, I’ve wanted it for a long time but it was taken. I thought to myself, the desire for it should go away now that I’ve prayed…I’ve cried, begged, pleaded and even pretended it wasn’t there; I cry out to God and beg Him to please just take this from me, do something to strip me of the earthly desires, of the evil in my heart and nothing happens…it’s still there and some days it’s hard to swallow and suck down the tears inside, it hurts so much and in one brief moment, it could all be gone so quickly! He gives me words to bless others with and release my own thoughts.

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