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Great experience today that I wanted to share:

I saw this older woman walking in the heat and she had three heavy bags. I noticed she stopped walking and could barely stand. I turned the car around and told her to get in the van and I’d take her home. She was so thrilled and very grateful.

I introduced myself and she said I’m Nancy too 😊we both laughed and woohoo-ed each other.

Then she was talking about her family having so many birthdays in July and I told her mine was the 21st and she burst out laughing and I asked what day hers was and she said the 22nd.

We laughed and woohoo-ed again. By that time, we were at her home and she said that she was so blessed to meet me and that we had so much in common…what a great blessing for me after being told I wasn’t hired for a job I really wanted. .

It was awesome 🤗 I was so happy to meet her and be available to help her out. So many drove right past her and never stopped to offer help.

The biggest and best thing is that it Immediately turned my negative experience into a positive experience. I am a blessed Woman

There is Always Hope

It’s never an ordinary day here. there’s always one thing or another going on.

Sometimes it can feel like I have a million things to do and no matter how I try, it doesn’t seem to get resolve when I want it or when I need it to be.

But I know there is always hope.

Even when you mess up, you have not wrestled control from Him.

After all the dust has settled, where you are and how you are is just as He set the course at the outset of creation.

Higher

Closer

You may not understand, you may not be able to see, but nothing can interfere with that plan. All must go higher and only higher each day.

And so, there is always hope.

The Lover of my Soul

The Lover of my Soul

He created me and cares for me, he tells me I’m without fault or blame, without blemish, even though I make mistakes, it’s okay, I won’t be punished for it. He tells me and shows me love and warmth and protection with each new day…

His name is Yeshua (Hebrew for Jesus)..and he sees my struggles and loves me through them all. He never gives up on me. I have made my decision…Yeshua is For me, not Against me. I want Him more than anything else.

You see…it’s the perfect love story and I live to tell of it. He loves me so I can love Him and no matter my struggles I can always live and reach out to others.

All the years I’ve spent thinking and disallowing myself to be whole; because I talked myself into believing, that my mistakes keep me from being whole.

In the meantime, negativity and self-pity found a stronghold in my mind. I’m closing my mind to those things, never to rest in me or on my tongue again.

I want to devote my life to Him like many others have and help others in the ways they have.

Blessings

adjust your vision

Do you ever see something that looks like it’s strange or you think maybe you’ve not seen it before? Upon close inspection, however, you will notice that it’s quite normal and you’ve seen it hundreds of times before.

While cleaning the washroom one afternoon I spotted a lady’s face, it was in the vinyl above the bathtub. While I had never seen it before after living there for over 5 years, now I suddenly started seeing it and I could Not see it, even if I tried. I always find that humorous.

I woke up this morning thinking, I’ve never known who I am, not in my entire life.

Lately, things are becoming so clear to me, so clear in fact, that it’s hard to differentiate between whether I’m seeing through a glass or seeing the natural.

I’ve always believed in seeing the good in others; actually, it’s not as much an intended thought as it is a way of life for me. I just never saw that people are ‘inherently evil’, now I know that’s what the Bible tells us in Psalms 51: 5 – “In evil, I was formed in the womb and in sin, my mother conceived me.”

A few days later I saw the Torah Portion for this week and I’ll share it here…amazing how so many thoughts I have seem to be shared by others at the same time.

Seeing With Spiritual Eyes

Like-Minded People

Sitting in the room with all the like-minded, broken, bruised, torn apart people just like me. Set Apart.

What are those words?

Why those words?

Yeshua bled is why and He’s why our unique creation exists; all individual, flawlessly created, not one being like the other.

Identical twins aren’t even the exact same.

Why did He chose me to be there.

He put me there against all the odds that were impaling me.

I have these voices in my head (negative thoughts), they’ve been there for so many years beckoning me to hear their music, to follow every note and keep in tune. And I did, because I knew no differently.

I could barely think of a time when the whispers were louder than this calling out of who I thought was me.

The darkened days, the gloom, the sorrow, that infinite dark cloud shadowing over me with each step I take, each breath.

Every chance there was, so was the darkness.

Ephesians 6:12 “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

This verse goes through my mind many times. some days, sometimes only once is all I need.

Loving Yourself

You cannot hate your way into loving yourself.

Telling yourself what a failure you are won’t make you any more successful.
Telling yourself that you’re not living up to your full potential won’t help you reach a higher potential.
Telling yourself you’re worthless and unlovable won’t make you feel any more worthy or lovable.

I know it sounds almost annoyingly simple, but the only way to achieve self-love is to love yourself—regardless of who others think you are and where you stand and even if you know you want to change.

You are enough just as you are. The Hebrew word that helps me is Dayenu and it means, It is enough, so it is enough that you someone that the Father made.