being available…

Great experience today that I wanted to share:

I saw this older woman walking in the heat and she had three heavy bags. I noticed she stopped walking and could barely stand. I turned the car around and told her to get in the van and I’d take her home. She was so thrilled and very grateful.

I introduced myself and she said I’m Nancy too 😊we both laughed and woohoo-ed each other.

Then she was talking about her family having so many birthdays in July and I told her mine was the 21st and she burst out laughing and I asked what day hers was and she said the 22nd.

We laughed and woohoo-ed again. By that time, we were at her home and she said that she was so blessed to meet me and that we had so much in common…what a great blessing for me after being told I wasn’t hired for a job I really wanted. .

It was awesome 🤗 I was so happy to meet her and be available to help her out. So many drove right past her and never stopped to offer help.

The biggest and best thing is that it Immediately turned my negative experience into a positive experience. I am a blessed Woman

Life Produces Fruit

The moment a branch is severed from the rest of the vine, it begins to wither and die. That will be our experience if we do not remain in Him, yielded to the flow of His life through us. Independence of heart and seeking to live our own life will sever us from the flow of His life, which is in the Vine. Our own life, our human natural life is by it’s nature, that of spiritual death, the end of which is destruction (John 15:6), the only life which we now have when we are in Messiah is that which is given by Him. A branch begins to wither the moment it is severed from it’s life-source (the sap of the vine), and the process of ‘death’ will continue until it is completely dried out. Green branches will not burn, but that which is dry, in which the sap has completely dried out, is that which is ready to be burned. A life cut off from the Vine will for a while be green enough to be grafted back in, but there comes a time when it is no longer possible to do it. When completely dead, then judgment is inevitable.

But, as we abide in Him, His life will motivate us and cause us to keep His commandments and precepts. Yeshua said, “If you keep my commandments, you SHALL ABIDE in my love, even as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in His love.” John 15:10

If we abide in Him, His life in us will live the life which will produce the fruit. Messiah in us will keep the commandments, for His life is in accordance with all the Father’s expectations. We will then have the love of God flowing out from us in all that we do, and love is the fulfilling of the law. By our own efforts we can never do this. See Rom.7:13-25

It is by the evidence of His life that the world will know that we are His disciples. The love of the Father will be in us and we will manifest that to each other (John 15:12,13; 13:34,35)

Yeshua said, “I have chosen you, that you should go and bring forth fruit” John 15:16.

We have been chosen for this purpose, the only condition is to abide!

The fruit of the Spirit is listed in Galatians 5:22-23. These are the qualities of God manifest in the flesh.

Living Through the Painful Moments

So much of my past hurt me, I hid so much for so long and used food as a protection from more pain. Now, I’m addicted to food or at least carbohydrates. I used to love myself or at least I convinced myself I did. No one could hate me more than I do myself at times. The other day I walked past some people, mostly men, while some were catcalling others were grunting and snorting and yelling SUEY (sp?) at me! I felt so humiliated and normally don’t hold onto childishness like that, but I couldn’t let go, it hurt deeply and no one can know the depth of that pain unless it’s been done to them.

I’ve been doing really well with changing my thoughts and creating positivity in my life. Most of the time, no matter what you see on the outside, I feel like a beautiful dancing ballerina on the inside, know Yeshua’s/Jesus’ love and value of who I am, who He made me to be.

This past week was especially hard with things being so busy at work and I found out that a friend I loved dearly passed away a week ago. Another friend gone, another nearly gone…I think it’s okay to feel these things for a while but not to wallow in them, not to let negativity drag us down and keep us in a dark place.

This week, I’ve not turned to carbs so much, I can’t eat when I feel bad, nervous, upset. It just makes me sick to think about eating. It might be nice to feel that way all the time, but that’s not healthy living either.

Removing The Veil

I have recently come to the understanding that Self is the opaque veil that hides the Face of YHVH from us. It can be removed only in spiritual experience, never by mere instruction. Instruction only is, as well, trying to instruct leprosy or some infectious disease out of our system. There must be a work of Yeshua in us before we are free. We must bring our sins to the Father for judgment. We must prepare ourselves for an ordeal of suffering in some measure like that through which our Saviour did for us on the way to die on the cross. Many do not think of the true pain that Yeshua suffered long before being hung on the cross/stake.

When we talk of the removing of the veil we are speaking of a figure, and the thought of it is a poetical justice, almost pleasant; but in reality there is nothing pleasant about it. In human experience that veil is made of a spiritual tissue; it is composed of the finely sensitive perception of which our whole beings consist, and to touch it is to touch us where we feel pain.

To tear it away is to injure us, to hurt us and make us bleed. To say otherwise, is to make Yeshua and His death no death at all. It is never fun to die. To rip through the dear and tender stuff of which life is made can never be anything but deeply painful. Yet that is what the crucifixion did to Yeshua and it is the same thing that it would do to every man to set him free.

To begin tinkering with our inner life in hope of removing the veil. YHVH must do everything for us. Our part is to yield and trust. We must confess, forsake, refute the self-life, and then reckon it to be crucified. But we must be careful to distinguish lazy ‘acceptance’ from the real work of Yahweh. We must insist upon the work being done. We dare not rest content with a neat doctrine of self-crucifixion. That is to imitate and spare the best of the sheep and the oxen.

We must insist that the work be done in very truth and it will be done. The road to the cross is rough, and it is deadly, but it is effective. It does not keep its victim hanging there forever. There comes a moment when its work is finished and the suffering victim dies. After that is resurrection glory and power, and the pain is forgotten for joy that the veil is taken away and we have entered in actual spiritual experience the Presence of our living Yahweh…