unwritten and updates

We’ve now made the move to NC and are settled in and getting comfortable. The job that I wanted to transfer from was going to be too far to drive so I am interviewing and sending resumes out.

In the meanwhile, I’ve spent time discovering new things about myself and dealing with some old baggage. YHVH\God has provided in every situation that we have encountered rough waters. It’s quite an expense moving from state to state if your company or the military doesn’t pay for everything.

I’ve been listening to a song called Unwritten for a few weeks now and it pretty much says all my thoughts..yes, I feel very Unwritten and even though I know the Father has a plan for me, I believe I need to have a plan of Purpose for my life. The song and lyrics are here if you’d like to have a listen:



We’ve all heard the saying, “try, as you might”, “keep trying”, “don’t stop trying”, “try try try again”. The point of these phrases is to encourage others to keep going, keep moving forward. To also understand that ‘trying’ never really has a stopping point in our lives, unless WE stop.

I used to say, “I hope I’m doing well or I hope I’m good enough”, to be good enough is irrelevant, actually, just to do well or try to do well IS enough.

Sometimes I’m filled with the, I hopes, “I hope, I hope”…. or I hope I’m doing what YHVH wants me to be doing.  What He wants us to be doing is focusing on Him. I’ve now exchanged those “I hopes” with I’ll keep trying.

How does this fit in my relationship with YHVH/Yeshua. The mere fact that I am focused on doing something and thinking of Him blesses Him more than I ever realized.

Surely we’ve all been there at least once in our lives; ready to give up when it seems like the burden has become too much to bear.

It could be a relationship, a job, an illness, or maybe even life itself… the feeling of just throwing in the towel seems like the best thing to do (at least at the moment anyway).

The best thing I have found to do when I’ve felt like giving up is turn to the Bible. The Bible is full of encouragement for any and every situation we could possibly face.

Many of the Psalms have helped me, chapters 23, 27, 40, 46 and many more. Job has always been a great source because I always have so many questions.

Don’t worry that ‘just trying’ might not be enough, trying is more than enough, at least, in our Father’s sight.

Just keep on trying, don’t give up too easily, don’t quit in a ‘spur of the moment’ situation. Be still, wait and remember…

Trying is enough.

Life Produces Fruit

The moment a branch is severed from the rest of the vine, it begins to wither and die. That will be our experience if we do not remain in Him, yielded to the flow of His life through us. Independence of heart and seeking to live our own life will sever us from the flow of His life, which is in the Vine. Our own life, our human natural life is by it’s nature, that of spiritual death, the end of which is destruction (John 15:6), the only life which we now have when we are in Messiah is that which is given by Him. A branch begins to wither the moment it is severed from it’s life-source (the sap of the vine), and the process of ‘death’ will continue until it is completely dried out. Green branches will not burn, but that which is dry, in which the sap has completely dried out, is that which is ready to be burned. A life cut off from the Vine will for a while be green enough to be grafted back in, but there comes a time when it is no longer possible to do it. When completely dead, then judgment is inevitable.

But, as we abide in Him, His life will motivate us and cause us to keep His commandments and precepts. Yeshua said, “If you keep my commandments, you SHALL ABIDE in my love, even as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in His love.” John 15:10

If we abide in Him, His life in us will live the life which will produce the fruit. Messiah in us will keep the commandments, for His life is in accordance with all the Father’s expectations. We will then have the love of God flowing out from us in all that we do, and love is the fulfilling of the law. By our own efforts we can never do this. See Rom.7:13-25

It is by the evidence of His life that the world will know that we are His disciples. The love of the Father will be in us and we will manifest that to each other (John 15:12,13; 13:34,35)

Yeshua said, “I have chosen you, that you should go and bring forth fruit” John 15:16.

We have been chosen for this purpose, the only condition is to abide!

The fruit of the Spirit is listed in Galatians 5:22-23. These are the qualities of God manifest in the flesh.

Woman of Courage

I found this on a facebook timeline and wanted to share:

I believe that we have to continue to speak things to ourselves and trust in them.. Declare them over all those doubts..
You are what you believe you are.

Tell yourself..

I am courageous..
I am determined..
I am unstoppable..
I am victorious..
I am love..
I am gifted..
I am anointed..
I am blessed..
I am successful..
I am healed..
I am beautiful..
I am whole..
I am confident..
I am forgiving..
I am grateful..
I am generous..
I am strengthened..
I am well-able..
I am favored..
I am God’s masterpiece..
I am not who I was.. I am who I am becoming..
Less of me.. More of Him..

Keep speaking life to yourself..
and don’t just say it..
Trust in it..

Captivate Us

Your face is beautiful
And Your eyes are like the stars
Your gentle hands have healing
There, inside the scars
Your loving arms they draw me near
And Your smile it brings me peace
Draw me closer, oh my Yeshua
Draw me closer, LORD to Thee

Captivate us, Yeshua
Set our eyes on You
Devastate us with Your presence
Falling down
And rushing river, draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us Yeshua, in You

Your voice is powerful
And Your words are radiant bright
In Your breath and shadow
I will come close and abide
You whisper love and life divine
And Your fellowship is free
Draw me closer O my LORD
Draw me closer LORD to Thee
Let everything be lost in the shadows
Of the light of Your face
Let every chain be broken from me
As I’m bound in Your grace
For Your yoke is easy, Your burden is light
You’re full of wisdom, power and might
And every eye will see You…

Certain Reservations

I’ve not been here in a while, this place in my mind is reserved. Too many thoughts rambling about, searching for words. Deception, lies, deceit, words unjust and unclean to my mind and my thoughts; a world full of people who are drowning in hurt; they have let pride and stench from the ugly and dirty places fill their lives so high to the point that they don’t think; they seemingly forget about the the deep down hurting words and the beatings in the night; faceless man on the bus {There was a boy/man got on the bus with no face, no eyeballs at all, just hollow places where they were meant to be. He had a service dog and people gawked and stared and I wanted to go talk with him but I didn’t because of the service dog and the protection measures he needed}.  

Two others had a great impact on my ride for those days…It’s quite a thing when we recognize in our own minds that there is something deeper than what we seen or felt.  A young woman huddled in the dark, writing her ‘saving words’, as she referred to them, a young man who aches and cries at night for his mother’s sudden death and the birth of his daughter because he was sitting in another State finalizing his life with his mother. 

How can they not see that there is release, that they don’t have to hide under deceit and lies and there’s a place and a Force we all know and they’re only three small, yet encompassing words, Yahweh, Help Me! Of course, they’re more than just words, there’s daily walking and talking and living outside of what society deems to be normal, to find a voice and calling beyond what’s in a phone.

How do I turn those things into positive, meaningful and life-enhancing words, when I felt like I was stripped of even the smallest amount of dignity at all. It is not a thing of Pride. Once I have forgiven, I don’t like to revisit the occurrence but this time, for the sake of witness, I will. I know where my strength is, I’ve always known that it comes from Him, the Almighty, the Omnipotent God who Loves me, who Loves us all.

I know not why I search unless it’s the giving up of self/ego, trying to think I can do things best on my own. It’s IN Him from which everything I am is drawn from. It’s IN Him that I wake and I breathe through each day that He gives me. His strength is IN the faceless man on the bus, the young woman huddled in the dark,, the young man who aches and cries at night for his mother’s sudden loss. He asked to hug me because I am a mother, missing my mother too.

This was a vivid image in my mind. I was thinking of the people on the bus, on the side of the road, at the airports – no money, no food, no clothes, no Hope. Is hope all it takes to transform a life, desire misconstrued, an opportunity waylaid by a life of unveiling. I think Hope is a great place to start but I believe also that we must have, Faith and Belief in the One God that offers us complete provision when we go to Him.

Sometimes I wonder how people muddle through this world without some glimmer of hope in their eyes. I see it, you know…that look that slips across their face when I meet their eyes with a smile.

That look of want. of plead. of empty. They desire but do not seek.

And then we pass and they are gone. But they stay with me even after I’ve passed through and am home under covers. Because that look of hopelessness coats my soul with the grief that only loss can bring.

I want to go back and touch their shoulder and draw them back to the place I call Home and the One I call Father.

But as for me, I will always have hope, for You have been my hope.

I cling to Him tightly in those moments when the world rocks and I have nothing but the pounding cries of uncertainty. What do they do, when the waves slam them against the rocks until their grasp loosens and their dreams flow from their eyes like water?

In my nights of darkened grief when all I can do is weep until my pillow soaked with my tears and my hair is moist with salted sorrow, I know that my fingers can reach upward and grasp those of the One who holds me close.

I’m running to His arms and the riches of His love will always be enough.

Attitude of Gratitude

“When people think of generosity, they usually think of gift giving, especially during the winter holidays. The focus is on what you give and what you get. A few others focus on the needy.

On an daily basis, most people in public are bombarded with homeless people offering to work for food, and on television we see pictures of hungry children in third world countries. Most of these appeals are touching at first, but wind up being no more than an annoyance after the third or fourth time of being seen. The desire to help others degenerates into giving to appease a guilty conscience because we have and they don’t. Eventually and sadly enough, many become numb to the whole thing.

Generosity is more than simply writing a check or digging into your pocket to give to the needy. Generosity is an attitude, and and should translate into all our interactions with others. When you give someone the benefit of the doubt, that is generosity. When you are kind to someone who we might think doesn’t really deserve it, that too is generosity. The way we treat other people and the attitude is the most accurate reflection of generosity”. Excerpts taken from: https://drschiffman.wordpress.com/2011/12/29/generosity/

For me, generosity comes from the gratitude I have to YHVH/God for all He has done for me. Every blessing in my life is a reminder of the abundance of His goodness. With my family’s limited income we cannot afford to be generous with people as much as we’d like. We give to the needy, I can almost always offer the time to listen to a person’s problems and give them comfort, I can take someone who has fallen, and help them get on their own two feet. We can afford these things (not monetary) because YHVH/God has been so good to us.

When I meet people who are stingy with their money, or with their time or energy toward others, it makes me wonder how grateful they are toward YHVH/God. When we really appreciate what He has done for us, it enables us to be generous.

I know people who make excuses to not give. They say the ‘beggars’ (I despise that term) use the money to buy drugs and alcohol. They say all the donated money for the TV begging goes to pay for air time. I think we have to use great discernment and wisdom when we give, but we also need to be willing to take the opportunity and consider that we might be doing some good by giving. I just see it as this, in giving to someone it might be the only nice thing that person has had happen to them.

The parables of Yeshua/Jesus are all about the generosity of Him, but also about how we need to be generous toward others. Because Man was created in the image of YHVH/God, the way we treat others is a true reflection of how we feel toward Him. True godliness can not exist apart from human decency. Psalm 145, Matthew 25, Isaiah 58 all have some great verses on how we should give.


The Gift of Giving

We are built both to give and to receive. To expect to do one without doing the other is like, sitting on one end of the teeter totter expecting to have a good time going up and down, while refusing to allow anyone to sit on the other side.

In times of difficulty, it is always easy for us to become so focused on our problems that we become totally centered on self. Giving helps us to escape that trap. It pushes us up, just as surely as someone else sitting on the other end of the teeter totter lifts us from the ground. Through the simple exchange of energy by giving to another, we find ourselves buoyed with uplifting and joyfully rewarding energy.

Giving reminds us that we are limitless beings living in an infinite universe. What the Father gives us the desire to do comes from the Holy Spirit; although some may not know that yet.

“I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, and I in him, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me” (John 15:5). Our loving and understanding Father is not out to “get” anyone, because they have to ask for help. He sends people (branches) to our lives to show us how He loves to share His vine.

Giving helps us push past our boundaries. If you’re shy or timid around others it can be hard to reach out to a stranger without knowing their exact response.  Sometimes we might find ourselves needing to step out of lukewarm comfort and feel the cold chill of desperation. Giving gives us a feeling of abundance when the rest of the world feels sparse.  2 Corinthians 10:15  “not glorying beyond our measure, that is, in other mens labors; but having hope that, as your faith growth, we shall be magnified in you according to our province unto further abundance…”

Giving helps us grow, if we are giving without expecting rewards. 

2 Corinthians 8:14  “but by equality: your abundance being a supply at this present time for their want, that their abundance also may become a supply for your want; that there may be equality:”

Giving is a gift we give ourselves as long as we realize that our Father has given to us, so we can return the gift.

My own personal experience has been that when I give, the more excited, energetic and joyful I feel. I love the way I feel when I give to others, whether it is time, money or blessing. I have come to accept giving as a vital step on my own personal path to becoming who I want to be.