My One Desire

Developing a closer relationship with our Abba Father reflects a heart that is truly reborn, for only those who are in His Spirit desire a closer relationship with Him. In this life we will never be as close to Yeshua as we ought to be, or maybe even as we desire to be and the reason for this is from my own point of view, it’s the lingering of sin in our lives or that we aren’t letting go of self in order to Do all that He has asked of us.  This is not a deficiency on His part, but on ours; our sin remains a barrier to the full and complete fellowship with the Father which will be realized once we’re in glory.

No matter where we are in our walk with our Abba, we can always have a closer walk; and even in the new earth, we will have all eternity to grow in our relationship with the Him.

To have a closer relationship with Abba is to make a daily habit of confessing our sin to Him. Our sin is what drives a wedge in our relationship with Him and our confession removes that wedge. He promises to forgive us in

1 John 1:9, 10 If we acknowledge our sins, then, since he is trustworthy and just, he will forgive them and purify us from all wrongdoing. If we claim we have not been sinning, we are making him out to be a liar, and his Word is not in us.  

Forgiveness is what restores a relationship that has been hard-pressed or strained. Confession is a heartfelt response of those who recognize that their sin is an offense to our Father. It is the confession of one who realizes that his sin is what nailed Yeshua to the cross. We must learn to listen when He speaks. The Apostle Peter tells us that we have the prophetic word.

2 Peter 1:19 -Yes, we have the prophetic Word made very certain. You will do well to pay attention to it as to a light shining in a dark, murky place, until the Day dawns and the Morning Star rises in your hearts.

That “more sure prophetic word” is in the Bible where we hear His voice say to us. It is through the Divine-breathed Scriptures that we become in order to grow closer to Him, we should read His Word regularly.

The Word tells that when we belong to God, we must be thoroughly equipped for every good work in 2 Timothy 3:16-17 

The Gospels records Yeshua hiding Himself away to commune with his Father in prayer (much like I do myself). Prayer is much more than simply a way to ask Him for things we need or want. Prayer is a way to have continual daily chats with Him and learn to see Him in us and all that we do. We can have a closer relationship with Him by finding a body of believers with whom we can regularly worship.  The Psalms show us many calls from YHVH to His people to come and worship the with Him.

Psalm 95:1-2 – Come, let’s sing to Him! Let’s shout for joy to the Rock of our salvation! Let’s come into his presence with thanksgiving; let’s shout for joy to him with songs of praise.

Our Heavenly Father invites and commands us to come into His presence for worship. Not only does fellowship with believers give us an opportunity to come before the Messiah’s presence in worship, but as we come into the house of the Yah in worship and fellowship with His people, we can’t help but grow closer to Him as a result.

Yeshua told His disciples in the upper room:

John 14:23-25 -Yeshua answered him, “If someone loves me, he will keep my word; and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with Him. Someone who doesn’t love me doesn’t keep my words — and the word you are hearing is not my own but that of the Father who sent me. I have told you these things while I am still with you.

In James 4:7-10 – he tells us, Therefore, submit to God. Moreover, take a stand against the Adversary, and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and he will come close to you. Clean your hands, sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded people! Wail, mourn, sob! Let your laughter be turned into mourning and your joy into gloom!  Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

Paul tells us in Romans that our obedience is our “living sacrifice” of thanksgiving to the Most High.

Romans 12:1-5 – I exhort you, therefore, brothers, in view of God’s mercies, to offer yourselves as a sacrifice, living and set apart for God. This will please him; it is the logical “Temple worship” for you.  In other words, do not let yourselves be conformed to the standards of the world. Instead, keep letting yourselves be transformed by the renewing of your minds; so that you will know what God wants and will agree that what he wants is good, satisfying and able to succeed. For I am telling every single one of you, through the grace that has been given to me, not to have exaggerated ideas about your own importance. Instead, develop a sober estimate of yourself based on the standard which God has given to each of you, namely, trust. For just as there are many parts that compose one body, but the parts don’t all have the same function; so there are many of us, and in union with the Messiah we comprise one body, with each of us belonging to the others.


All biblical references to obedience are presented as our response to the grace of our Father we receive in salvation. We don’t earn salvation through our obedience; rather it is the way we show our love and gratitude toward YHVH. Our relationship with Yeshua is twofold, whenever we draw close, He draws closer to us.

Isaiah 26:9 – At night I long for you with all my heart; when you judge the same earth and its people, they will all learn what justice is.

It is my One desire to draw closer to the Most High Yahweh and do service for Him. To be as a helpful child.

Tread Lightly

Proverbs 15:1 — “A soft answer turns away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.”

Take every thought captive.  I always thought I knew what this meant, but I was very wrong about it. Then I started making major changes in my life and was shown these verses in Isaiah 55:8 -11:

8  “My thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways,” declares the LORD.

Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.”

10 Rain and snow come down from the sky. They do not go back again until they water the earth. They make it sprout and grow so that it produces seed for farmers and food for people to eat.

11 My word, which comes from my mouth, is like the rain and snow. It will not come back to me without results. It will accomplish whatever I want and achieve whatever I send it to do.”

Every thought we have does not have to be spoken out loud or expressed! I know now that over the years I was harsh with others, often cold-hearted. I never meant to be, I didn’t understand when others said to me, “don’t take things personally” and it really upset to be told that over and over.

I never understood what it meant, I didn’t seem to have people in my life that would explain those things. Have you heard the quote, “hurt people, Hurt People” well, that was me 100%. When in the course of life, If a person has been hurt or worse — abused and this occurs continually as a life-pattern. That person is usually on the defense because {1} they either don’t care about themselves anymore and/or {2} they’ve been hurt so much that the thought process always goes back to the painful moments (negative thinking), either emotional or physical, sometimes spiritual.

Many of us I believe do this and are  still in this thought process. It’s not easy to step outside of it, it can be very hard and painful to trust again. Not one of us knows how much another is hurting, not one of us knows the past a person has suffered, even if you hear the words or the stories, we truly just do not know. I understand a painful situation, many times I can relate to that situation, but I cannot possibly have that person’s thoughts, their painful moments, I cannot take their place and their pain so they don’t have to suffer and to struggle with each day. Biblically-speaking, we are not meant to do that because we are supposed to give our burdens and struggles to the Father. Physically, emotionally-speaking, it’s just not even a possibility to take someone’s troubles.

{Psalm 55:22 – Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved.}

No one need ever fear telling the Truth about anything — unless we fear our Creator isn’t capable of redeeming everything we’ve been through. I was that fearful too when I lived in one wounding after another, when everyday was bruises and bumps and burns to my soul from words that ripped me apart inside, tore me until I felt I had no identity.

Remember what the quote said in the beginning of this post, “hurt people, Hurt People” this perhaps is a perspective that might help someone out there to understand more fully that aching question, “Why me”? All of us, I believe, at some point will face these things either as victims, survivors or abusers and there is a way, whether or not you believe in God to move beyond this but my thought is that in the end, you will turn to your Creator for the best help possible.



The Gift of Giving

We are built both to give and to receive. To expect to do one without doing the other is like, sitting on one end of the teeter totter expecting to have a good time going up and down, while refusing to allow anyone to sit on the other side.

In times of difficulty, it is always easy for us to become so focused on our problems that we become totally centered on self. Giving helps us to escape that trap. It pushes us up, just as surely as someone else sitting on the other end of the teeter totter lifts us from the ground. Through the simple exchange of energy by giving to another, we find ourselves buoyed with uplifting and joyfully rewarding energy.

Giving reminds us that we are limitless beings living in an infinite universe. What the Father gives us the desire to do comes from the Holy Spirit; although some may not know that yet.

“I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, and I in him, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me” (John 15:5). Our loving and understanding Father is not out to “get” anyone, because they have to ask for help. He sends people (branches) to our lives to show us how He loves to share His vine.

Giving helps us push past our boundaries. If you’re shy or timid around others it can be hard to reach out to a stranger without knowing their exact response.  Sometimes we might find ourselves needing to step out of lukewarm comfort and feel the cold chill of desperation. Giving gives us a feeling of abundance when the rest of the world feels sparse.  2 Corinthians 10:15  “not glorying beyond our measure, that is, in other mens labors; but having hope that, as your faith growth, we shall be magnified in you according to our province unto further abundance…”

Giving helps us grow, if we are giving without expecting rewards. 

2 Corinthians 8:14  “but by equality: your abundance being a supply at this present time for their want, that their abundance also may become a supply for your want; that there may be equality:”

Giving is a gift we give ourselves as long as we realize that our Father has given to us, so we can return the gift.

My own personal experience has been that when I give, the more excited, energetic and joyful I feel. I love the way I feel when I give to others, whether it is time, money or blessing. I have come to accept giving as a vital step on my own personal path to becoming who I want to be.

13 Attributes of YHVH’s Mercy

I was on Tumblr website one day and I found a poster-like photo that showed the 13 Attributes of Mercy. Of course this piqued my interest, because it was one of the Typography posters and I love a wide variety of fonts, but I went on about the day. Since then I’ve read about this several times but kept walking away from it. Today I was finishing up some Drafts that I’d started on and ran across this one.  I didn’t completely ignore the interest I first had in this topic because I got this much written:

The 13 Attributes of Mercy are found after the incident of the Golden calf, when God threatened to destroy the people of Israel rather than forgive them (Exodus 32:10). Moses felt that Israel’s sin was so serious that there was no possibility of intercession on their behalf.  God appeared to Moses and taught him the 13 Attributes, saying: “Whenever Israel sins, let them recite this (the 13 Attributes) in order and I will forgive them. Thus this appeal to God’s mercy reassures us that repentance is always possible and that God always awaits our return.

Exodus 34:6,7

The 13 Attributes of Mercy are based on two verses in Exodus: “The Lord! The Lord! God, Compassionate and Gracious, Slow to anger and Abundant in Kindness and Truth, Preserver of kindness for thousands of generations, Forgiver of iniquity, willful sin, and error, and Who Cleanses (but does not cleanse completely, recalling the iniquity of parents upon children and grandchildren, to the third and fourth generations).

As I’m sitting here writing about all this it’s just occurred to me that I wasn’t thinking I’d learn this through my own writing. I can’t believe it, I am somebody, I am like Yeshua is. How could I be so wretched and ugly and sinful and have the same qualities that He does. How can I have gone through 32 years of adult life and not ever put this together. I really am part of our Messiah.  He really is in me, His blood too, no but His spirit is? I’m okay, I am acceptable. He loves me because I’m part of Him! I read what a friend said about not being status quo and I’ve never wanted to be just status quo, I want to be more!  I think I’m having a breakthrough here.  He’s not even just a part of me, Yeshua is IN me. I feel like I’m half frozen in Awe and my mind is in slow motion as I’m trying to describe what I realize.