learning and loving Me…

I want to love my life, since I never have.  It feels like so much is holding much is holding me back.  Or am I holding myself back with all the fear I feel from the thought of living in singularity.

I don’t think I love anything about him, for years I tried and even convinced myself that I could be content, but I never could be that way. I can’t/won’t settle for someone who cannot do for himself, cannot make his own decisions and make goals for himself.

He told me why he loves me…all very codependent reasons. Because I did things for him, he loves me. I encouraged him, I helped him to believe in himself, but he doesn’t believe in himself at all.

People I thought were friends told me I should do what the bible teaches. Today’s bible is mistranslated many times and not written to be truthful. Most people cannot accept the truth about what the bible says. I can. I have for many years.