Trauma is something horrific that has happened to you that caused you grief, pain, and hurt, so deeply that it actually changed your heart toward life. Trauma is something that happened to you, either recently or in former years. Trauma does not define you.
The images and pictures play over and over, and this is what causes the problems today. It seems that when people have traumas, this is when the persons life shuts down and they are stuck emotionally at that time and place. The trauma has to be identified at the root so healing can occur. Post Traumatic Stress Dis-order is often labeled on people who had such traumas such as loss of a child, witness of a horrible incident, car accident, unexpected death of a loved one, etc.
Depression: Do you know what depression even means, I thought I knew but I didn’t. Feeling rejected, worthless, and helpless; seeing no hope for the future. Being depressed also means that you feel hopeless, like there is No hope for you or for your future.
Nightmares: Experiencing in dreams the traumatic events experienced in that trauma.
Flashbacks: Suddenly experiencing, with deep emotion, a vivid memory from the war. This is usually triggered by something that occurs in his normal, daily life such as a certain sound or smell.
Anger: Outbursts of unreasonable and uncontrollable anger. Having anger and not understanding why or where it’s coming from.
Emotional Numbing: Not permitting himself to be emotionally close to anyone. There is no desire to have personal relationships with others.
Survivor Guilt: With wartime veterans, they constantly wonder why others, considered to be better than himself, died and he did not.
Suicidal Thoughts: Thinking about ways to commit suicide because it seems that there is no way out.
Self-Punishment: Inflicting pain upon self to try to atone for the past.
Using alcohol and drugs to numb his memories, emotional pain, and
feelings of guilt. Also, using food to bury your pain not only through
Bulemia and Anorexia but through hoarding or having eating habits that
Blackouts: Periods of time in a person’s life that there is no recollection.
So how do we get free from this?
Take time to identify the surrounding circumstances.
Were there others involved and who were they? (Make a list)
Write down what they did:
- Did they hurt you?
- Did they make you angry?
Then from that list, take one person at a time and write down what you became because of that person. For example, if you were abused you may feel fear, angry, frustration, unworthiness, self-pity, confused, jealous, distrusting, hateful, ashamed, embarrassed, etc. This may take a long time and for me it was a grueling process, but I am glad that I did it.
Once you have identified them all, you have just identified your sins! All these so called feelings are your sins that you retained from this experience.. They are not emotions as some would suspect, and that’s why people are still in bondage. They are sins – your sins retained. And it’s these sins that are keeping the trauma alive. Keeping nightmares, guilt, and the pain alive! Did you know even a victim has retained sins from that situation?
Take a look. If a person was raped, what did they “become” because of that rape? They became angry, confused, hateful, distrusting, fearful, ashamed, worthless, rejected, etc. Looks like the same kind of things that were in someone who was abused, right? The Bible says that if we don’t forgive others for their sins against us, we take on their sins! Yep! Every single one of them. (John 20:23). But if we forgive them, their sins don’t come onto us but stay on the perpetrator.
Take the list of your sins that you retained, and confess them before the Father in the name of Yeshua/Jesus and receive forgiveness. See it’s these sins, these retained sins that prevent you from being free!
I John 1:9 says that if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Once you have received forgiveness, now you can forgive the person who caused your grief. You are now FREE to forgive, truly forgive from your heart because your heart is clean toward them!
Forgiving removes the pain of that offense done. You may still remember things, but the pain is gone, the hurt is gone. That is freedom! So then when you are free, you are able to help others find their freedom. And because you are no longer experiencing the pain, you are now able to minister to others without falling to pieces. Because honestly, if someone was ministering to me but was still in pain about it for themselves, I question their freedom.
This to help people find peace, healing, and restoration through the Word of God and by the power of the Holy Spirit. Not only do I feel it is my calling to minister to those with broken hearts, wounded spirits, emotional, physical and spiritual problems; I enjoy it and feel it helps me to stay on track in my own walk.
A reminder to stop and reflect on what you have learned, not rush on to the next thing before it has had time to really do a work in your heart. All head knowledge is only going to cause you to be top heavy! We need to allow time for the seeds planted to grow and take root into our hearts. We not only need the “knowledge” but the understanding. Understanding gives revelation, and revelation makes it a reality in our own lives. Not just head knowledge, but heart knowledge that changes us. By doing this, you are “receiving.” We not only need to “know”, we need to “believe and receive.”
Praising God is crucial to having all you learn take permanent residence in you. We remain in peace when we are strengthened in our spirit and that happens when we thank the one we are doing all this for.
Lastly, all work and no play is not scriptural. If you become overwhelmed or “heavy” spirited, stop and take a breather. It reminds me of flooding. If the water comes too quickly it doesn’t have time to absorb into the soil, causing flooding and all that water is wasted. But if the water comes softly, and just enough that the ground absorbs, and then it does great good!
I still need to add the scripture that I found for these…there are several dozen. I realize now that I have some more people that I need to forgive and I’m going to be working on that next.