These are the days we need to spend in prayer, to Yeshua our Messiah and Lover of Our Soul, and spend time alone in my bedroom, it’s where I can be quiet and I can listen. A lot of times I play prayerful worship music and turn the world off completely.
I love the quiet, I like hearing my own heartbeat.
I know that Yeshua gave me this heart, he gives me one beat after another after another; he gives me the tears that are like the spring of living water, those same tears that help me find my strength through the hard days. He’s always there, we just have to tune into Him.
You know we have to just learn to love the silence so we can hear Him.
I’m trying to find healing for my own past and my own self-destructive behaviours.
I have a 19 year old daughter whose been broken and beaten down since she was 9 years old. Fatherless in most aspects, of what a father is supposed to be.
I have never mothered a girl into a woman before and I cannot build a city in a day or even in a whole lifetime.
My friend always says, “The largest a mother ever is, is just before the swollen birth, after that she spends the rest of her life small, so very small”.
The sky was darkened and then lit up slightly just before dawn, then she made her delivery.
Her hair black and long, full of curls everywhere. Her beauty is breathtaking and captivating.
I’m in Great Awe of this Treasured Gift.
Years later, simply being in her presence makes for a conversation.
When her eyes reflect joy, I know then that I’ve done a few things right. When she sits on the ground, she looks up at me, with a wandering soft voice and asks, “what is it?”
All I can think of to say to this beautiful young woman is, “You are so beautiful and I love the sparkly look in your eyes”.
“You are the wonderment of all things of life and of all life’s plans”.
I think to myself, “Where do I go from here? Where will the Great Almighty have us in our new chapters of our lives?”
And as I looked into my daughter’s eyes I could see the Holy One, everlasting and eternal touch of a Living Stone full of the Living Water from the well that Yeshua has to offer us.